Forever Alone -Chapter III-

Days have passed and I have never stopped even a second thinking...
Thinking how long will I be like this?
How long will I stay like this?
Will it actually take me forever?

Where is this thing I'm looking for?
The thing that I always feel I need...
Or maybe I will just stay this way...
Because I am so used to be like this...

How I wonder how to be normal?
I wish I could be normal...
Yeah I know... It's normal to feel this way...
I just wanted to prove some things... (some things that is not clear)

Sometimes I can't survive the pain...
The pain that can kill me softly...
The pain that is kept along for a long time...
The pain no one will ever know...

It hurts... It hurts...
Why do I have to be a human?
Why do I have to feel pain?
Why do I have to be alone?

I love the rain, as I know I love myself...
But standing in the rain all alone...
Being in the middle of the street, alone in the dark...
Waiting for someone that will took forever to arrive...

Who wants to be alone? Do you think they wanted it?
Nobody wants to be alone... Everybody wants attention...
No man is an island... But why are still this people left all alone?
Why is it that we should experience all the pain?

I can't seem to understand this so hard game called life...
I hope I can just easily quit it or cheat it...
The more I am nearing to finish the game...
I am discovering that it's starting back at the beginning...

I don't want to be alone no more... I don't want to be alone...
But where is the thing I am looking for?
I am walking on an endless line to infinity...
Searching for clues that can't be seen...

I can shed a million tears if that is all it takes...
I know that it can be considered a weak point... (but...)
If only tears can remove all the pain...
I will just shed a tear and another 999999 times for it...

I can act to be another person if I wanted to...
It's a better way of cheating in having a nice status in this game...
But sooner or later I'll be the one who will lose it all...
My real self will be soon unfold and haunt me forever...

Although I can't seem to calculate how long will I stay like this...
I am willing to be better at the proper time and place...
I don't want to stay this way! I don't want to be alone no more...
I hate this pain... I hate this pain... I hate this pain...

The chapters are just beginning... It's not yet the end...
I am starting to open all the possible doors...
The doors that will let me enter the end of the game...
I just hope that I will be satisfied with my final status...