Forever Alone -[Chapter I]-

I wish I could create a 'perfect world' of my own
Making me perfect in every human's eye
Oh how I wish I could... Oh how I wish I could...
So I can put to an end all these sufferings and pain...

"The thing that makes us perfect is our imperfection"
Quite true, but there's still this 'perfect standard'
Killing me gently... How I wish they could... (To end this now this early..)
But it seems like they want me to suffer for the rest of my life...

I am useless, I know... You always told me I am...
Useless to you... Useless to society...
I am just a stupid kid playing and hiding in an adult's body...
Making myself looking more useless and stupid...

How I wish I could end it all... Right here, right now...
My heart will be sooner crushed and explode!

I don't know what to write... I am stupid remember?
I just put it all out... Putting it all out... (not using any brain...)
You may think that I am not like this... (the person who is so emotional...)
But I must be! Nobody else will love who I am... (I only have myself)

I am so stupid... I am so useless... I am so alone...
I wish someone would be here... Someone will be here... (who?)

Hate me! Hate me! Hate me! But it will never make me hate myself!
Cause if I do... Who else would love me? (a stupid useless kid)
I am alone... Forever alone... Staying this way... Maybe that's destiny...
It seems like this night... I am all alone... I might as well give up...