Serious Talk...

I have done some "thinking" and "talking" these past 30 seconds and I have
asked myself... "What if everything that I have now... I can change...
all of them... According to my choice"... Questions started running after
that 30 seconds... 1 minute after that... these questions came out of my
head... Overflowing! Will I be happier? Will I regret it? Will I not be alone?
Will I be succesful? Will I be a conqueror? Will I be mad? Will I be better?
Will I be worst? And many more that I have forgotten! I told ya! Overflowing!!

If I can change everything right now according to my choice... What will I be?
How will it affect me? Will I miss the old me? Will I wish back what I have
changed before? I really don't know...

In the past... Back when I was still young, though I am still so young now....
When I am so mad... With my life, my friends, myself!!! And all these stupid
people making useless things!!! I always wonder how my world will be if I can
change it according to my choice... These questions are not getting tired even
though they are always running in my head: What if I can choose new friends?...
Will they be better? What if I can choose my parents?... Will I be happier?
What if I can choose my talents?... Will I be better? There are so many of
them!!! But I writed only 3 because it would take me an hour to post a post with
too many characters!!! Trust me! They're so many!!!

I always want to change things according to what I wanted and desired... But
everytime I came into these kind of questions... I always answer my stupid
questions... (You need to know more about me! The all types of me! Trust
me! YOu don't want to know!) You may find me crazy but sometimes... When
I talk to myself... THere is always that mature rj I am talking with...
He always give me the right advice! I always call my mature rj when someone
needs advices... Yah I know it's me but I want him to be called mature
rj cause the rj that is always seen by many is the jolly rj... problem free!
Always happy... There are ONLY VERY FEW CHOSEN PEOPLE WHO HAVE SEEN THE REAL
ME, but NO PERSON in my life had tried and had known the all kinds of rj...
NO ONE... NO ONE!!! That's why I am forever alone... Because I know I can just
act crazy and talk to myself with stupidity...

This is a serious talk...

I may have started a good topic but I can't stop my hand and my mind from typing
all these stuff! I really can't!! But the answer in all these stupidity I
have came up with is God... You know what I always answer back to myself with
these questions??? There are no such things as ACCIDENTS... All was meant to be...
Even that shit you saw in the cage of your dog... Even the small rock that you use
to kick when you're so mad and hitted the face of a muscled-gay... Even the day you
thought you were alone... Dancing and singing naked in your house and then you
found out that they've done a surprise party... All of these things... Everything
that occurs in every second in your life is not an accident... Everything that
happened in your life has a destiny... A destiny you will just figure out when you
are old... A destiny that you will forever regret if you haven't done your part...

This is a serious talk...

Don't let life hit you hard when you're old... Don't try to regret the
things when you are older... Wishing you have figured it out when you were young...
Wishing you can change the past like me... Everybody has a destiny to fulfill...
God has a plan for you... All the hurt and the happiness you had experience are not
coincidence... It's your destiny... You may not know it, but you must still fulfill
it... Read the bible... Pray everyday... May seem so corny... but if you believe
that's not true... don't ever dare to say! "I wish I can change the past"